Kebahagiaan dalam kedukaan

1 March 2011
My 7th-cute-niece was born. My brother chose to named him Muhammad Zafran instead of Fakhrullah or Hafizullah. *jauh tersasar dari nama sebenar*.

7th March 2011
It was really really shocked me. I got a call from my abang, saying that abah was "no here anymore". At first, no tears. The first person that i reached was Zara *i was in Johor that time*. I called her. After that -non-stop-crying. No! Actually it was crying+screaming . I felt very guilty towards arwah abah. My only regret is not to be there with him -on his side-. The last time I met him was on 21 Dec 2010. Before I went back to Kuala Lumpur, he was still in CCU ward. I have promised him to be back after the MARA interview on 23 Dec. Only 'janji kosong' to calm him. (I didnt went home, kerja jugak kat Guardian). He cried *sebak*.

After 1 week without him......
Sebagai hamba yang beriman pada Allah, I have to redha dengan ketentuan-Nya.

So sekarang, I start busying myself doing the preparation for the upcoming my brother's wedding while melayan my cute nieces and nephews-so that i can ignore my sadness. But deeply in my heart still I want abah. Rumah terasa sunyi tanpa bebelan abah. The sound of his motorcycle was really menggamit kenangan. The time he went home by his old motorcycle, we could detect dari jauh lagi and my mom ready with Teh O to treat him and cucu-cucu semua lari ke muka pintu waiting for him.

He actually didnt know what was happened. Salah seorang cucu yang sangat rapat dengan arwah abah.

They play themselves. Kebiasaannya bermain dengan arwah abah.

Mreka sedang berpura-pura rajin mengemas bilik pengantin.

 Mesti orang bengang baca entry ni. Really broken english. Tapi I tak kesah. :D

P/s: Life must go on. Cheers!!